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Why Do I Write?
A Guest Post by Rajiv Mittal
The first thought that came to my mind is, ‘Why do I write?’
So why do I write?
First of all, a random rant …
Because there are six billion humans in this planet. I cannot handle that number. A novel is a universe which usually contains a manageable population and the main ones are generally interesting.
If I switch on the TV or surf the internet, I read about how mankind is destroying the planet. And the more dramatic of such portrayals show heart-rending photographs of children in great distress. Where on earth are the parents of these children? What made them produce children if they could not offer them lives better than their own? When I write, I feel happy that I am not under pressure to feel outraged at everyone other than the real criminals.
And they are?
‘Produce more children for our vote banks,’ continue to exhort our political people. ‘Consume more,’ continue to exhort our corporate people. The real world now seems to be held to ransom by people with maniacal eyes hysterically expostulating the beauty of their religions. It seems most of these people have spent a great deal of time and effort trying to look ugly. They have succeeded spectacularly. I don’t want to see them, hear them or argue with them. I smell decay and their touch is not healing. What do they do to earn a living? What were their grades in school and college? What qualifies them to be the prophets? Just ugliness, it seems.
What makes for a good story? I am told it is the following:
Theme. A theme is something important the story tries to tell us—something that might help us in our own lives. ...
Plot. Plot is most often about a conflict or struggle that the main character goes through. ...
Story Structure. ...
Characters. ...
Setting. ...
Style and Tone.
The real life story is the worship of fecund reproductive organs and its ending worries me, it is not something that interests me. Books are the triumphant outcome of the uncontrolled mind.
That is why I prefer to write. I am in control of my universe.
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How Brahmahatya happened:
I would visit my father in his retirement home during his final days. Seeing all the residents, I would wonder – what are their stories? And are they all really who they say they are. Also, spending time at a retirement home made me question a lot of things about life. And the story evolved.
Strange to say, but once I started writing it, the book took on a life of its own. It sounds clichéd but it is a fact. It was almost as if the book got its own aatma (soul) and I became another character in its life journey – the character of the author.
A personal experience related to the book:
There was time to spare and the tuktuk was chugging past the Theosophical Society en-route to Phoenix Mall in Chennai. I had a suspicion it had no business being there but the tuktuk driver was canny and I was clueless. On an impulse, I asked him to stop near the gate and paid him off.
I had last gone inside the Society gate with my dad. He had wanted to show me some banyan tree - one of the largest in Asia. I was seven years old and I was very happy to be alone with him even though it was only to see some stupid tree. I remember I had then been very scared of it (it was a huge presence with strange limbs). I wanted to see it again now, no... I wanted to relive the memories. I recall (now as an adult) that it was massive, majestic in its silence and even the forces of nature (the waning twilight rays, the gentle sea-breeze and the noisy birds) had fluttered nervously around it, as if seeking permission.
My steps quickened as I reached it. The signboard said, ‘The Great Banyan Tree.’ I looked around, puzzled. A lone security guard walked up to me and said, ‘Sir, the tree fell down in a cyclone many years ago.’ I stared at the vast green space in the center where it had stood, quite uncomprehendingly. I felt very angry. This was very wrong. The tree had no right to die. It was meant to be eternal.
I again looked at the emptiness where the tree had lived. The younger trees, its descendants, stand proud and tall, seeming to preserve and protect the bare space.
When I walked away, I again felt the presence of my dad, very frail in his final days but very strong in my memories.
Some words that echo the philosophy of the book:
• Whomsoever you encounter is the right one.
• Whatever happened is the only thing that could have happened.
• Each moment in which something begins is the right moment.
• What is over is over.
Author – Unknown
The quiet, unhindered steady chant that treads through the book:
“Brahmanda bhramite kona bhagyavan jiva. According to their karma, all living entities are wandering throughout the entire universe…”
I hope Brahmahatya will form part of your life journey, however small. Thathasthu. (It will be so).
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"Books are the triumphant outcome of the uncontrolled mind"! I relish the idea of making order and art out of disorder and chaos. Your personal story about the Great Banyan tree is very powerful and touching. Thank you, Rajiv, for sharing your thoughts about writing, and more, in this outstanding guest post. I am truly looking forward to reading your book.
Your comments are welcomed, as usual. Thanks for reading!